Blingees
GoodBye Blingess
❦ I made this page originally before Blingees shut down. To me, none of the other “edit photos with glitter gifs” websites are the same. So please enjoy what few I made before its end. How sad it is that I got to know it, only right before it had to go.
Revisting and Moving on
❦ When I finally revisited this page to redecorate, I was over come with sadness and reflection. Many of the subjects that inspired me to make them, no longer arouse those feelings. It's been a long time coming, but when I look at them now, after this lack of feelings happening again, and again, I can admit it now. The one that pains me the most is Yoshiki, who was once a fire in my heart. Him and his music were a huge part of my personal identity and represents my catalist into the many artist I now love, and the friends I've made through those artist.
❦ When I first made this page, it was a show of my current love. A representation of myself at the time. It feels strange to find a completele moment of your life frozen in time on the computer, in what feels like should be a “living” document. From now on, this document will obtain the status of Archive (not that I could add any more). This in now simply a memento of a old part of my life.
What these mean to Me
❦ When I look at these, they summon very specific memories. At the time I made these, I was in my room the most I had ever been. It was the room that used to be (and is now again) my moms room. During this time she had moved out. It was around, or slightly after my senior year. I failed. Covid-19 became a thing and schooling went fully online for me. Due to it, my isolation I already suffered from increased, but I was extremely happy about it at the time. I saw it as a second chance and I enjoyed being alone. I was on Discord a whole lot and enjoying my J-Rock bands. I was on Twitter so much that I thought in tweets and had anxiety regarding my happening on there. Lonely. I had learned about Blingee from someone else into J-rock; Petty internet feud.
❦ This moment of my life sticks out like a sore thumb. It's a defining piece of my mental self-image because the soon after, I have almost no memories (exaggerating a little1...). August 2020-August 2021 is blank, truncating my memories and percieved distance from my past self. Only once I start attending school in person again, do my memories fully return. I feel shocked at how far away 2020 is now, and how different I am. But also scared because of how little I've done since.
Working on this has made me extistential... PIEN
1 .What I do remember firstly is sitting in my room doing homework that I don't rememeber, and couldn't do because my brain was so fried. It was a scary time for me over all because I feared failing senior year a second time (which did happen). Followed by summer school right after. I rememeber changing back to my OG room and doing some para-para in there and in the living room. School + Covid + the isolation has completely fried away memories of that year.
Yoshiki
Friends Pets
Gakuto x Chachamaru
Mast
Kami; Malice Mizer
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